am i stupid?

I was hoping that u would called me last night
to check on me wheter i am safe or not?
but it was my fake hope
i woke up in the morning
check on my hp
there's nothing inside
not even a misscall or message
i think this is the time i need to wake up
i am giving too much hope for myself
i believe there's a chance for me
but things wont happen so easily
i am the only one who fall for it
i am the only one who making myself suffer
i am the only one who likes
i am the only one who is so stupid
i never know i would fall so deep this time
ur just an ordinary stranger whom i met so randomly
but
how come?
i wonder....
*sigh*
let me let go, free myself
i wish i can.....
but it's hard
i am serious
i do like so much so much more
i am in deep shit right now.
save me out of the shit~